Abed El Rahman Shammaa, UN staff
[NDLR: "Texts on Lebanon have been
reproduced as received in order to
keep their emotional content"]
«I live in Beirut Lebanon. I have 5
years experience. In 1982 The
Army attacking Lebanon we left
our home in Beirut. Under the fight and
the bomb I remember these moment like a
video tape in my mind we went to Saida
cause it more safe, after that we return
back to our home and the civilian war
start again with bad situation under bomb
horror time,crying time... and finish in
1990 this is my bability moment, my father
teached me always to help my country my
lebanese people in the future, I started my
study and in 1996 the army attacked again
my country, the same in 2000, 2006.
Now I am upset, angry, feel a bad thing in my heard and always asking my self: why? when this bad moment will finish? how can I build my future, my family? In each years we have a problems so I am in unstable country!
From this moment I am trying to left my country cause I dislike to my wife and my kids live in bad situation in bad atmosphere, I am trying to find another work. I need some relax moment, peace, silent, I need to leave with my future family in safe ground, I like to play with my kids only thinking to play and not thinking how to bring the food to bring, the gaz, the safe place…
I need to build my families in safe country if they going to the garden or school,they are in safe side my heard my mind relax...
Last war I live in The UN Premesis cause it more safe and I left my father and my mother in Beirut for one month cause no gaz in the station, the food start deacrease in the market... so how can I trust this country? from 1982 to 2006 the same problems!
I tacked by my mobile 2 video track during the attacking hearing, watching the bombardment in south Beirut».